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~Well hello there dears, greetings to you all. :flirty: :heart:

Oh, what's that? You were expecting someone else? Well, sorry to disappoint you dears,

but the one you're referring to as 'Demon' or 'Pat' for very close ones is, like, fully gone

mia for the next time ahead, banished and displaced by me - who knows when I'm gonna

fetch him from his 'interdimensional' resort, again? Perhaps at Carnival's end in about 2

week's time if I feel like it. Wink/Razz :heart:




For now, there's only sweet lil' me for you to be contend with =P (Razz) - as in the cute and

charming imp 'Tia' always eager to talk and out for 'adventure' ;) :flirty: :heart:

If you have anything you wish to ask me or simply want to hang out with, I'm totally for it. ;)




But in any case, dears, I really want to wish all of you a very happy and lovely Valentine's

Day, as lovers, as couples, as relatives and friends. There's so many forms of love out

there, this day is supposed to be for all and everythen. :love: - Go out, spread the joy and

love, do something with and for those you cherish or get to someone completely new. :hug: :pat: +favlove 




With that, Tia says bye for now and looks forward to many interesting new experiences to

make :flirty: :kiss: :heart: :D



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Hello everyone. Yeah, I know much has happened on many a corner of yours I haven't properly responded to and/or how you've been messaging me as of recently for many a reason for about a month by now which I've left unresponded ever since and I'm sorry about it. Partially, my reasons behind my 'elusiveness' of sorts can be blamed by me somewhat having ended up under the wheels of Christmas rush and all sorts of stress that happen to come with it job-wise and the like (something I comparatively had far less to bother with in past years), though I'd have to lie if it weren't for the reasons of me having strived to push-over my private projects and the like in many direction while making the one or other (uncomfortable) experience/revelation within. Again, I'm sorry I've let you hanging in the air for so long without any proper response nor information for that matter and I'll take sure to take my proper time answering/catching up on things with you the way it should be. For that matter, seeing how this will most likely be my last journal for this year, and wanting to come back at some of you this way already, I'd like to use the occassion in wanting to

1. thank you all for your birthday wishes, I really appreciated that :nod:

2. briefly remininsce/reflect upon this year's events and what I hope in looking forward to in the next


So yeah, as pointed out before, the year's about to come to an end - much quicker than the one before in my pov, actually - and surely a good deal has happened within I briefly want to bring up here to see what has been achieved and what not and what I'd like for next one to bring. So, all in all:

1. My greater ambitions in regards to 'greater projects' and the like (nor a proper return here for that matter) still have been left unfulfilled following still (somewhat) emotional as existential struggles I had to try solve this year having marked my more urgent primal priority (and for those who might raise their eyes upon this for having brought this up so often times now in the past, to those I'd like to point out that, timespan and the like aside, my parents back then pretty much left a pile of broken glasses in many a direction that wasn't nearly as easy to solve everywhere, with some fragments still left there and then to cope and be it merely directed towards myself - and not really (only) towards their passing or so, not actually that, but towards all other kinds of abuse/trauma/bullying and the like I had to content with even long before I joined this site (as those closest to me happen to know) which I had been able in suppressing for a time before ultimately coming back to surface now and which I want to take sure to properly solve that and bring myself into full-balance before attempting on any 'real' long-lasting return, in the end).

2. Job-wise I'd come towards a temporary solution this year after a failed impression within a data-center following a paid 3-month internship and a failed important interview for a governmental position roughly around the same time (May), having ultimately turned towards my godfather for help and now undergoing vocational training with him in spite of my and my (former) mentor's overall distrust and dislike towards the man, but following overall pressures regarding the future, my own financial stability/long-term self-sustainment and in regards towards my grandmother all closer explained in my previous journal, currently seeing no other choice in that matter

3. In return for all that, though, I was able in somewhat extending and/or solidify my network of friends in real live, being a good deal more open and outgoing (if still not nearly as frequent, deep and overcome on my end as I'd have liked, but starting to get there... slowly ^^; ), having a bit more of good connections now to cherish in many a way (even at the prize of finding myself even less time for anything around here, sadly enough on one hand, but again, will try to solve that... someway... somehow ^^; ) :D


Well, at least that's how the events of this year can be wrapped up. Now as for the following year, those would fall into my agenda on which I hope to properly resolve for good, then:

1. Finish my 'writing task' I brought up many a time within the past now and undertake steps to finally make a proper return towards here, again, and do/post art, again, in greater style

2. Overcome the rest of my (social) issues and the past in any way possible and be it through 'shock-therapies' or something

3. Become more open to try out a good deal of more things, perhaps even to the point of finally fully giving myself over to the 'new flow' to the likes of 'kids these days' :rofl:

4. Try use newfound connections and/or possibilities to switch over firms to escape my godfather's influence and finish my vocational training there and finally become a full-fletched working citizen as should've been the case about a decade ago by now

Well, at least that's the gist of it. On that note, I wish you all a Happy Christmas and a Happy New Year and will look for that one to finally provide the ultimate outcome we've all been looking forward to - for each of us to accomplish what we have in mind and/or want to do. :santa: :xmas: :D :nod:

Good blessings towards you all, may your hearts always shine bright and a smile be drawn on your faces. :nod: :heart:


Alright, moving on to answering those messages now... :work:

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Finally, I get to write this down after having announced it for several times by now only to have it postpone, again, for whatever reason. At least, though, I can finally use it to replace that so-long standing previous entry now which was already quite a humongous as depressing sight to begin with (though if this one is gonna turn out much better given the one or other thing I had in mind talking about is left to your own judgement; though it should be, somewhat, slightly, dunno really ^^; :shrug: ).

Sorry it'd come to take me this long now to properly come up with a newfound entry after half a year or so now without anything new in-between and even before, actually, when I'd invest most of my energy writing newfound entries rather be politically-based on the overall 'Article 13' drama - the first and only time having broken my rather supposed political neutrality on the web (at least how much one can consider themselves 'neutral' in an ever-changing politically-heaty-driven world :shrug: ) - than anything on my personal front. This one will supposedly change that for sure.

A good deal of you surely has been quite off-put by my recent short notices and poll, quite rightly assuming in me having hit quite a depressive streak/low, again, as of recently in real live and/or in general and not necessarily solely because it's soon becoming three years, again, by then, since my father's passing (which I'm not gonna be whiny about nor in still not having overcome it (but still being a somewhat sour subject for me to talk about), just using it to defunct a most likely narrowly-minded theory/line of thought that could've been used to justify such (while not 100% denying such either as it might still be so to some degree on a subconscious-level ultimately :shrug: )) - and they're correct with that, but, again, not necessarily (only) for (just that) one reason - but perhaps I might start from the very beginning, so you can better understand the reasons behind such as well as finally receive that very update what's been going on on my end that last half a year or so behind the scenes:

Surmised to say, said last half year or so had been quite an overhaul in overall changes of direction in life which would more or less force my entire attention towards it - with me still having difficulties adjusting so than even the previous state for the last roughly 2-3 years or so when I started attending university by then and spent my time studying there in means of overcoming the overall afromentioned loss and get myself on the line, again, emotional as job-direction wise - especially the latter, though, for having taken on my first side-job at the sidelines and having ambitioned for using that overall state to form connections with potential places to eventually find work then and roughly writing over 500 applications in means of acquiring such, only to fail.

Up to April this year I used to be a student within same university, having only missed a final semester or so to receive my bachelor in return. However, through my overall failures before securing a job within my so-far experienced (and personally preferenced/fit) field of profession - definitely not helped by my now 'somewhat advanced age', I felt the need in having to pull the plugg on an overall upbringing of merely solely academical based-line topped with same final studying line in university now that even wasn't meant to be practiced in so long as I had in mind of finding a job as soon as possible, then - all in favor of a more 'practical' based one, now. Though why the overall stress in acquiring a job so badly, you may already start to wonder at this point?

Well, that's based on two simple, yet effective reasons and another course of ill-fated failing decisions I've come to make in live within those last, say, 7 years now or so:

1. (the more pragmatic current one unrelated towards just proclaimed 'failure-decision') I'm still living with my grandmother - that in itself having more or less become a necessity now, as her overall decline in mobility both in hand as feet dexterity (numb fingers far the same operational as used to be (if still functioning, but just with far less feeling within) and suffering from elephantitis making it difficult for her to move around and certainly not unguided when outside her/'our' flat) have forced me in investing far more attention and assistence towards her, then (mostly when it comes towards bureaucratic matters or things to be done outside of same flat not necessarily requiring her presence, then), least she might end up unable in sustaining herself and end up in pension home - a fate I want to prevent her from as she has no private insurance and would only end up in a most likely rather abusive one, then (at least Germany happens to suffer such problems; dunno how worse it's everywhere else, haven't really researched that part yet :shrug: )). It's also her regulate income in form of a pension that allows me in having a roof over my head and ensure our living together as long as I don't possess a stable one myself that'd could ensure me such, hence having to invest same especially care to ensure such for as long as possible, all not helped by

2. (this being the more true thorn in the overall game) I don't have any finished what some may be familiar with 'vocational training'. Sure, there are some fields where it's not necessarily required (but to what conditions then, in return?) or where one could easily weasel themselves around/into it (but those few posts being hardly competitioned which I, too, have come to fail in, obviously), but for the most part, coming by without such actually happens to be impossible. Especially in Germany, it's somewhat a death-sin if you don't have one. Normally, within same country, you supposedly do so when you finish middle-school around 16-18. Me, however, in my arrogance back then also backed up by fear when having witnessed same working world having taken their strains on my parents respectively (my father having been promoted to branch manager in a food-based firm, then, only to find himself under severe pressure and for my mother ending up bullied by her colleagues in office when having been forced to shut down her home office to work within same firm, then) and not having wanted to end up the same way as them while also having wanted to pursue my-then dreams of overall media-based direction, would ultimately forgoe that step in favor of attention my art-based college then to secure my high school diploma of sorts (Abitur, actually, for those familiar with the term). By that time, I already had been around 19 or so and would take until 24 until I'd finally finish that goal in 2016 (normally only 3 years possible, but having managed in securing two more - mostly based on how it all been affected by my parents respective passings having fallen in-between having granted me this normally impossible exception to the rule), having from that point onward strived for catching up on said vocational training while undergoing my studies in university for mostly insurency/existential-based reasons, leading towards already mentioned roughly 500 applications written ever since only never to achieve anything out of it :no: (I had mostly strived for working within either government or press, but neither would ultimately take me in (even not the latter when I had undergone an internship the previous August (2018, I mean), as well as all other sorts of applications having ultimately been either media- or office based (administration-based that is).

It was this May, after the whole 'Article 13' failure, (where I also somewhat needed some time coming to terms with it and regenerate from the shock and which happens to be one reason why I immediately didn't come (to feel) like writing a new entry all too soon then, afterwards, but, again, that's not been the main reason why I didn't nor couldn't then), I was able in entering a first paid internship that was to culiminate in a full-fledged vocational-training position (office-administration) in a computer center (but that one having been quite a strenous one, regardlessly, for carrying around full servers up to 20 a day at least for maintance and whatsoever (no, there had been no lifts there or such, you really had to carry it all over stairs and such)). Also, an important interview within local revenue office which my mentor had as much tried positively promoting me as possible for it was still left to attend, then, which could've possible turned the tide in the overall dilemma and for which I had already paused my studies then in hopes of abolishing same ones, in the end.

But alas, both those promising aspects would ultimately come to fail as well when same government would still reject me as well as the computer center (having merely needed a cheap worker to built/maintain their servers and nothing more :smoking: ). Three months invested, given my best - all for nothing. My studies, now that I was unable in properly finish same ones with a Bachelor-Assignment or such, I could only finish next year at earliest, reaching 28 myself without any supposed real perspective, then, I was quite down, then, for once having felt so positive happy and optimistic for the true first time since all that stuff with my parent(s) came down, only to have it all taken away, again.

Nevertheless, I knew that, either way, things could not continue the way they are, when not knowing how long my grandmother might still hold out on, me possessing no vocational training at all as well as waste time on a degree that's not gonna amount to anything nor provide any real perspective in the long run, so I ultimately underwent the one last fail-safe I still had saved up and asked for my godfather for help - one my mother used to work for (having taken on another job later on where she underwent all that bullying) and who happens to be quite 'influential' (that's all I'm gonna say about him, though, as I don't want to give too much away in regards to his person and/or our respective exact living positions) - but why now and not sooner you may wonder now?

Well, let's just say, from what I managed gathering out from my mentor and/or in general, his 'affections' for me are merely based on him having had the hots for my mother ever since she used to work for him - with her having always turned him down - even the part of him having become my 'godfather' during my later confirmation in 2005 have merely been done in means of 'impressing' her or such - that as well as him being somewhat of a shallow persona who's not blindly to be trusted (even moreso in my case now in regards towards the little I managed inheriting from my parents (which, btw., is really not much, given my mother used to invest so much into deco-bullshit and all sorts of things not really worth anything anymore than she used to spent it for :facepalm: , so don't you dare assume I'm well off or anything to pester me with as that's not the case at all, nor will I ever do any such favors to have that clear for one and final!)) - something my mentor, knowing him and his less favorable sides far better than me, additionally warned me about, having always shared that viewpoint independing on his stand of things. But with the overall direty of the situation I now happen to find myself in, I - for the time being - found myself with no choice, but to ask him to undergo vocational training with him now instead (management assistant in wholesale and foreign trade now), much to my mentor's chagrin and my own displeasement, but, again, with the overall severity of the situation seeing no other quick solution at hand that could pull me out of the rift I've inadvertently cast myself into social-wise, with me still having in mind in trying to hoist myself out of his influence as soon as possible and use (t)his current position to switch over towards a different firm or so and establish a more for all (save for him, for sure) satisfactory position, then (or at least buy me some more time to find something else in the interim, ultimately :shrug: ).

Alas, said ambition aside, I've been working for him for about two months now soon - and while I could feel a bit more elevated in possessing a bit more of a stable income now as well as a prospect for myself in things finally going in the right kind of direction and still being able in pulling myself out in the mess I inadvertently created all those years ago, I just can't help myself, but help feel miserable in spite of these 'achievements', feeling like having 'sold myself out' towards my godfather now (who wasn't even there for me when that whole shit with my father's passing came to take place, nor helped my and my mentor then for that matter aside of some shallow promises never fulfilled until now when I basically pulled up enough balls to finally talk him into helping me at least within that one prospect now) - definitely not helped in my mentor, who had the most positive influence on me ever since and having regulary met for the one or other pep-talk and life-advice/experience he knew I lacked and taught me so as I basically had no ones to properly teach nor ask anymore and, resultingly, who I had looked up to most for his advice and his caring, having completely turned silent on me, having 'duly noted' my eventual decision, but certainly not being happy and certainly disappointed about it all the same, feeling as good as completely alone now, in the process.


That's roughly how the entire situation in that regard happens to look now and it's mostly that which has mostly made out my most recent streak of depression ever since (though the other aspect with the nearing annual of my father's passing might perhaps also have to do with it, if again, not profoundly), also playing into my overall rather negative poll and notices, then.

In fact, in most recent dawning realization of ever since, it's also through this very frustation of sorts now through which, no matter how inadvertent, subconsciously, (in-)directly or not, I've come to, again, either in- or directly, hurt several of you people in the process through either poor choice of words or inaction (or (a mix of) both) - most of them being quite close to me - and I'm truly terribly sorry about how I've come to treat all of you. I've been in my own way a jerk to you all for something I had/still have difficulties copying with and, again, either in- or directly let it out on you through unrelatable subjects on an subconcious-level. It was never in my intention to come off in such way, and yet it did. I hope you can forgive me. I'll try my best in keeping myself in check better when it comes to that and also improve myself better when it comes towards overall attentiveness and the like (even if I know that to still be somewhat troublesome regarding overall developements in my own enviromnent now alongside other, but still wanting to try so in as good ability as possible).

Yeah, that's what's been going on in my corner and, on a general note, apologize again, for coming off so negatively now. Back a few weeks ago or so when I first had in mind writing this in relations towards my current job position, I had it in mind in it coming off as far more positive and elevating only now through earlier mentioned actions and general circumstances to come off so low, again. Sometimes, I even wonder if there'll ever be something of 'positive' journal, again, the next time ahead. This year most likely not anymore, but still hopefully the next then.

Alright, that's all I have in mind for now, so until next time - wherever that'll be - and I'm sorry...

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So yeah, you sure have all faced such similar situation at least once before in your life (unless you're an infant, but then I wonder how you manage reading this then Psychotic ): Your day starts really great or average at least, only to have it end in total disaster and distress.

Well, originally, I actually wanted to use the day before to come up with a newfound journal entry that, for once, was actually supposed to contain some more positive elements within, seeing how I forciably had been occupied the previous week(s) before writing up to 40 pages worth of term papers and finally finishing the last on same day before (and thus, for me not really having been able keeping in touch with many things on a larger-global-scale (yeah, will get important in just a moment, hence emphasizing it that way)), only for it to take a full 180° - not in regards towards my own personal corners, fortunately not, but definitely on a far greater public global-scale.

Yes, the day before indeed was and still is one aweful Censored one in twofold direction, especially considering not the only events within themselves, but - at least in one direction - their long-term consequences for the future at large.


The first of those two events I'm supposedly referring to that'd come to transpire on the same day would be the burning down of the holy Notré Dame de Paris - unsettling close to disturbing/distressing images and streams that'd go around the world and (for the most part) rattle those witnessing it to the cores of their very being. Yes, that one was, without doubt, a quite heartwrenching sight, a piece of such outstanding art in regards to architecture of the days of the old running danger into completely ending up lost to the flames and even in spite of its temporary rescue now to still endure undescribable damages within. I was once visited it myself with my parents in 2002, so the feelings also hit a good deal closer there.

At the very least, it'll fall much harsher now to watch all features containing the cathedral without those very images hitting close to home now - most prominently this very special known one:

https://bplusmovieblog.files.wordpress.com/2012/08/the-hunchback-of-notre-dame-61.png

Yep, still aweful (even moreso considering the question how long this very image in itself will ultimately manage to stay within this entry now for reasons to be yet unveiled) :no:

But even in all darkness and despair, there's still light, has been and will always be there, even at the ends of time. While sorrow and misery run quite deep now in every corner of Paris and large deals of the world (even if it's still left to argue, seeing how places far beyond the US and EU partially have to endure much worse and mainstream media not nearly as much bothering concerning themselves with them, but I digress), the very fact it could still be saved in spite of its damages suffered still provides some comfort and beacon of light as well as positive endurance as determination in mankind's most positive of aspects. Yes, some parts of its long history have now fallen victim to the flames, never to be retrieved, but the very fundament and large parts of its legacy have still been managed to be saved and preserved, so hope still prevails it can ultimately be rebuilt and regain its former glory, again. In either way, my condolensces and thoughts go to those suffering greatly under the whole disaster now in hopes of this being some sort of comfort to them, ultimately.



Unfortunately, I wish the same could be claimed or resolved as easily as the above matter may ultimately turn out to be, for the second event that'd come to take place on that very same day before - albeit a few hours earlier - is as similarily destructive at its core, albeit on a far different meta-level that, at least for part of the world, will ultimately spell a gloomy future now and which, relatively spoken here, happens to make up my overall personal despair far greater than even the above sample (if still tragic in itself and from my view, regardlessly).

So, in that case, it's on the 15th of April that, after a definitely final and irreversible voting between the respective countries now,

Articles-Passed by theheroofdarkness

Yes, with my own country serving as one of its most prominent supporters as of the last weeks, it's no less thanks to their efforts this very outcome has come to take place now.

Almost 6 million petition-signers, above 200 000 protesters on the streets throughout the EU foolishly declared as 'bots' by either the ignorant or corrupted, claimed to be sponsored by large and influential monopols and companies on the digital market and nothing would ultimately change anything, in the end :no: (when it wouldn't surprise me that many of said politicans in return are on the highest (hidden) paying roll on those having wanted this outcome since day one, with the entirety of this all merely having turned into an indirect, if still, all-blown out war between larger monopols and companies who want to enforce their will onto their respective adverseries in the ultimate question of who can ultimately exert themselves greater and use their 'puppets' and 'cattle' more effectively; yeah, once more I'll most likely end up on some 'black list' for publicly voicing this out, if not already, but at this point, I've grown to delusioned and broken in that very direction to really care anymore)

That very day has indeed been a dark black one, with the flames of the cathedral on one hand serving as perfect illustration of what's gonna happen with 'our' internet within the next two years ahead (= within the EU) (no, I'm not intending on using said other tragic event for political sake and will clearly separate those two incidents from now on here, just pointing out the potentials for an appearantly fitting metapher there).

In that case, it wouldn't be surprising if many sites and contents, 'we' would want to seek out would come to contain the likes of this

https://sneakerwebdesign.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/06/eu-copyright-filter.jpg

or, some far later day, even this

Article 13 by Godforoth
(in fact, I'm once again wondering how long these will ultimately manage to keep within this journal now)

For those who even at this point still don't know what I'm supposedly rambling about, here you may find the most basic of informations regarding this overall 'rambling' of mine:



While said own country of mine and perhaps the one or other supposedly strive for a more 'mild' enforcement of same new laws now, it's ultimately a false hope, a fallacy, an illusion. There will be no way around Upload-Filters if one really wants to enforce them to such ludicrous extremes, with most of said larger companies and services most likely withdrawing themselves from the EU market now out of the sheer impossibility to meet all those standarts, ultimately blocking sites from us to interact with as the passage of the Data-Protection law the year already would - all for what?

'Copyright-protection' my Censored . The way it's ultimately solved now will do far more damage than good for thrice users, content creatores and partially even the very ones who brought it up, in the first place. The only ones I could think of to properly profit from all that to be afromentioned 'other companies' to some degree and 'laywer sharks' who have no life. :no:

Now for those very 'higher ups' or supporters of same laws who critizied all those very protestors since day one, no, (as good as) no one is opposed towards the fundamental idea of protecting one's creation in an effective way as well as updating those very laws to match the newfound century now. In fact some very small part of me actually would dearly like to look forward towards the likes of this as I, too, belong to those more coming from analog-times (rather in the middle, actually, but still so) who want their creations to remain by themselves and only allow others in reposting their stuff when having been asked permission beforehand - in fact, back in my 'TG-days', this is how I used to proceed with at least one YouTube user who wanted to feature them in a video series of his (don't know the name anymore) and should normally be respected as such.

In example, still sticking within same TG-direction, I'd try to fall in defense of a rather popular TG-Artist (whose name I'll purposely left unmentioned here), whose hard-worked features repeatedly get uploaded on YouTube without his permission and in exchange towards a small fee that's not reaching the 10 Dollars mark and needing it to cover his expenses, only for said Censored  to just continue their bullCensored (yeah, I'm partially still in foul mood, even after having waited for a day to supposedly calm down now). If such laws were to exist on global scale, that might have been the only kind of solice I might have received out of this, as it'd just prevent those Censored  from breaking such simple rules.

But alas, as pointed out above, the main abusers are rather found operating on US-market or similar, so even if 'we' are to suffer from those very newfound laws now, 'they' will regardlessly get off scot-free and simply continue their game.

All in all, that's one of the very reasons, why, even for those really supporting, the entirety of the laws the way introduced now is just not gonna work. Rather, entire populations end up gonna punished now for something only 'few' do (and it's already bad enough for Chinese, Russians and Egyptians among other, only for us to join their 'club' now (at least we might now get to understand them far better, in return :no: ), just for reasons already pointed out.


Even if one were to argue that, perhaps, it's all less done for the sake of (hidden) profit on some companies' ends rather than for the sake of wanting 'us' to return to more analog-times, again (which, seeing at times how far more the current 'youth' has come to lose morale now appearantly even higher than even our generation (by forces, I sound so old now when proclaiming this :facepalm: ), it'd on one hand actually not even be a bad thing for a change, but even so...), it's still just a dumb idea in more ways than one and not really gonna solve anything. :facepalm:

*Sigh* All in all now, it's really a dead end. It's over. There's nothing that can be done anymore to prevent what'll supposedly come. Even those thinking there's still a way, is just a make-believe notion.

Even in sight towards upcoming votes within the EU in less than a month and ambitions in supposedly rooting out all those in favor of the dreaded articles will be nothing more than a simple symbolic statement at this point, or just an act of retalitation. And even if the European Court of Justice would ultimately debunk the law in some years' time, it'd not undo the damage already inflicted through the enforcement of same laws then, perhaps not even being irreversible then, anymore.

Some, including me atm, certainly would like to pack things and simply flee towards the states for continous oppressive nature inflicted by 'them', but even in such lights, one's past would only come to haunt them, even in that direction. Perhaps it'd even be similar towards an American Tail then, where everyone had such high hopes for there being 'no cats in America', only for the opposite to occur, then, actually not much different than what was before - and that's not even getting into overall current 'political situations' over there. :no:

All in all, it's certainly a despair event horizont - at least for me. I was actually positive that, in near future (supposedly only few more months from here), I'd actually manage making a great return and post/produce geninue art, again, for here, alongside all my other very great projects in mind (especially a very special one) (and was actually among the lines of what I originally wanted to write the day before). But this very turn of events renders this potential as good as non-existent, now, seeing how much of it all is ultimately fan-art based, completely fitting 'their' bill, then. Even if this site were to be spared initially, it'd only be a matter of time, before the laws would also find root here, even moreso when the US might once again draw inspiration from said EU-laws now to once more try enforcing their own versions towards the public at large. It'll only be a matter of time, before the internet we've known and loved, will be completely gone, then, the way it used to be.

Well, seeing how things have ultimately turned out to be now, some of you that may have grown bored of these rather 'politically-driven' journal-entries - and be it only in a certain direction - may ultimately find themselves reliefed now with the knowledge of me no longer 'pesting' them with these, for it'll remain my final last journal entry upon this topic, seeing no need nor motivation behind those any longer (unless an unexpected positive turn where to come to take place, after all, but that appearing rather unlikely by this point).

Regardlessly of that, though, my own inner despair horizont for reasons just explained remains.... at least, when it comes to that, I don't know what to do anymore...Forgive me! Sad Drunk


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Alright then, that which some may consider to be a rather 'half-hearted/baked' effort now has officially been brought back to an end, again.

Somewhat unsurprisingly, it didn't exactly yield the kind of results I had hoped for - but again, it wasn't really that much unexpected in hindsight. Guess one can't count on catching flies twice with honey using the same method. :shrug:


So, to somewhat clarify things for once without overdoing it, here the most poignant points wrapped together:

1. Yes, the 'suspended account' was certainly a - if different - approach on protesting/raising awareness towards the overall article 13 dilemma that's about to threaten the freedom of speech and data-exchange in the world wide web as for now in Europe, but also to overlap towards the states/rest of the (so far unaffected) world soon. There's already been movings on generally censoring the internet - YouTube currently being the strongest current example - which is why action must be taken even those assuming themselves 'safe' when the reality's far from it.

As I've already brought this matter up in far-greater detail a good deal of times in the past and, again, me not wanting in overdoing this, you may read the following journals for more information what this overall fuss is about (for newcommers that is):


Save the Internet 2.0 - Sign Petition, Short-Vers.*for those joining in new now to supposedly learn about what to exactly save the internet from and/or not wanting to read the other stuff beforehand, you may skip over until reaching the slogan Save the Internet, again, within same text written exactly as I just did.

Yeah, alright, I realize I overdid it a bit with the previous journal even myself, so for those not wanting to struggle themselves through walls of text, I'm going to provide a short summary regarding the 1st half of same journal's overall events:
1. The overall 'removal' of works on my main page and my parallel account have not been initiated through deviantart, but myself, having crafted together a convincing 'fake' in almost close fascimilie of official DA notifications



2. The reason I've done so was meant to raise overall attention around here both regarding watchers as people in general, make them/you more aware towards a certain 'menace' that happens to threaten us int
Save the Internet 2.0 - Please Sign Petitionand stop Article 13 + Explanation (- yeah, sorry, titles still only allow a certain amount of word-count, so I had to include the rest here as it's going to become quite important for what's yet to come...)
Alright then, today - as the day before - rather mark quite 'interesting' ones, without a doubt and I apologize yet again I for jumping in so late to the 'party' (yeah, right :smoking: ).
Partially, this forciably had to do with me being quite stuck up learning for exams to no end the last days of which I'm about to write an especially important one tomorrow, hence having been forced afk until I was certain I'd have it all memorized when it becomes relevant by then.
On the other hand, though, an additional reason playing into all of this had heavily to do with me having been caught in long periods of thoughts in regards to how I'd ultimately come to address/reflect on 'certain' things having come to pass now - whenever I'd do so in a supposed 'distraught' manner or
Save the Internet - Help Stop Article 13Well, how'd you know? Six journal entries in a row in just a little of a week now (seven counting this one now). Given my especially spare activity in past months/years or so, that surely must be a record now. ^^;
Though I guess you could also consider it cheating at the same time, since 5 had been going on about the same thing, so, presuming that's only countable as one, this would make it the 3rd entry in such short time now - but then still even moreso than my normal ratio.
What goes for said latest entries, I once more wanted to apologize for the rather roughly wrapped up last entry of same series. I know it to be unfair to you and perhaps I should've invested some more time into it, after all. Then again, while not excusing things, it might still be for the better, seeing how I didn't intent to ruin anyone's fun doing these in the first place as well as fitting in not giving too much away at same ending then following my oh so often brought up reason of.... nope, no, not

As well as this link if you simply want to read things first-hand:


As I did proclaim in not doing anything too extreme to the likes of obscuring my entire gallery, again, as I had a few months before, yesterday's stunt I figured to be the best compromise at hand in not overdoing it, again, while at the same time supposedly serving its purpose. Again, didn't work out like imagined, but, again, I guess after having done something similarily before, it's just not cut out to work a second time.


2. Next Tuesday will mark the final vote upon the entire matter - if 'we', the users, finally won this fight or not ('fight', not war, as there'll always be such similar attempts in the future). The day before, as in 23th, marked the day of many protests around Europe which, carefully estimated, about 150 000 people participated in one way or another to let their voices be heard, hence the reason for my 'forms of protest now'.

While no further demonstrations are planned as far as I'm aware of and most likely not everyone making it to them, even if they're to take place, the one way for 'you', the average user, would be able to help is to sign this petition and spread word out as vast into every corner of the internet-world/general as possible. Said petition can ultimately be found here:


Over 5 million have signed this since having first been brought to live the day before hopefully to reach the 6th mark 'til said final votes two days from now.


3. As for my own corner of things/general, I'll come up with new update soon, at least what may be worth to share upon that.



So, that's all I figured that needs to be said as for now. Again, newfound update to be done at some other point in near future and hopefully to be a bit more illuminating then.


Until then, stay tuned!
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